I was talking to my mom on the phone this morning, and she said, "Andrea, you have every right to be stressed out. Look at all that is going on in your life right now. I don't know how you are doing it." I've thought about her comment all day and realized that I'm not Superwoman. I told my students this week that I've been waiting 37 years for my superpowers to take effect, and it hasn't happened yet. So, my mom and I know the only way I get through the stress is the good Lord.
As I was thinking, I thought I would post my official prayer requests and update them when I get answers. So here goes... they are not in order of importance.
1 - Physical issues
*Why is my head hurting? Is it a side effect of the bladder instillations? If so, I'm going to have to endure headaches. Going 2 weeks without a bladder treatment has me suffering again for the past 3 days. If it's not a side effect, what is it? Is it going to get better? Lord, keep my thoughts from thinking the worst.
*How is Randy really feeling? Is he hurting and not telling me? Sometimes, I can tell, and sometimes, he does a really good job of hiding it.
2 - Spiritual issues
*Many of you may know that Randy and I left our home church recently. We had been praying about it for a while, but I never had a peace about it. I went on a mission trip in July and connected to our teenagers in such a powerful way. Randy was on the deacon board. His last day before he rotated off was the last Sunday in August. That week, he announced that we weren't going back. I'm not sure if I know the whole picture. I'm sure there are things that he knew and never shared with me. My point is that I have to support him and trust that he knows what is right for our family. In the meantime, I feel as if I've lost every close friend I've ever had. I'm so lonely. I had friends at church that I could go to and talk to about anything and not be judged. I miss them SO much! People are hurt that we didn't tell people we were leaving, and I've tried to explain that even I don't know all of the details. I feel so stuck in the middle. I miss working with our teenagers. I know our church had issues and was far from perfect, but there are so many Godly people there that I miss terribly. I'm just praying for God to either change my mind or Randy's mind, whichever is in His will.
3 - Job issues
*I love being a teacher. I feel that's what God called me to do. This is my 15th year of teaching. I just feel so behind all of the time. As soon as I finish one TO DO list, I have to make a new one with more things to do. I'm learning a new curriculum called Math Out of the Box. I'm sure next year it will be easier, but I'm tired of staying late every day trying to get on top of things. I feel like I don't have as much patience at home with Makenna, because I've had to use so much of it at school during the day. My school is a wonderful place to work, and most of my co-workers are Christians. I'm so thankful for that. I just need to find a good balance.
4 - Personal issues
*I would love to add to our family. I'm not sure if it is my will or God's will. I'm getting too old to start parenting, so if we want to adopt again, it needs to be before I'm 40. 40 will be here in 2 1/2 years. With all of the stress from requests 1 - 3, adoption is not an option right now.
*Randy's work announced this week that lay off are probably coming. Keep Randy's job safe, Lord!
5 - My parents
*My father is doing better. I'm so thankful that God answered my prayer of taking care of my daddy. I still have concerns about both of my parents. They are quickly approaching 70.
6 - My in-laws
*My in-laws go to the church that we left. I miss them so much. I miss my nieces and nephew terribly. I miss everyone. I talked with my SIL this week and said that we need to get together. The problem is that no one has free time. (prayer request #3) I want all of them involved in Makenna's life no matter where we go to church.
I have many more requests, but these are at the top. I know God is going to answer them according to what He wants, not what I want. He has blessed me with everything that I have. It's all due to Him, not anything that I've done. I'm so thankful that our health issues aren't worse. I saw a little boy with cancer this week when I was waiting on my MRI. I don't want anyone to think that I feel like my situations are worse than anyone else. I know how blessed we are. This is just a way for me to document how good He is to me.
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